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May. 27th, 2006 10:23 pm
May. 6th, 2006 07:44 pm
The Path to living to be 1,000 years old.
Several times over I've been told that human beings are meant to live a finite amount of time, and that the body limits this on purpose.
Bullshit.
There is a way to live to be 1,000 years old, or more. We're working on it, and hacking the solution as I type this - as human beings. Invest enough time into anything and the infinite becomes possible. I know a lot of people think immortality is a bad thing, and death are bad things. I think they are both just parts of life, and you can take them as you will. You have full control over when you decide to die. End of story. That fact was never more true than today. If you want to live, then you live. If you think death is nice, then you die. Cold? Bad? Harsh? True.
The human being that will live to see 1,000 years old has been born already. The man that will be five hundred years old is in my generation for sure. Get used to that fact. And believe it. Living is optional, and watching friends/family/etc perish is horrible. But what if the standard of life was 1K years old on the average? Sound so bad then? No? Ok then.
The human being that will live to see 1,000 years old has been born already. The man that will be five hundred years old is in my generation for sure. Get used to that fact. And believe it. Living is optional, and watching friends/family/etc perish is horrible. But what if the standard of life was 1K years old on the average? Sound so bad then? No? Ok then.
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Apr. 6th, 2006 10:22 pm
Not in such a long time
Seriously, I haven't been this happy in a very, very, long time.
Last night was good, and yesterday was all around bad ass excluding the homework I had to do. But that was painless in the end, and I made a mountain out of a mowhill. I helped my folks, saw my bud Sam, and got a lot of writing done. What more could be asked for?
Today was even better. I get up, goto class, listen to my iPod while in class - get complimented by the teacher for it when I tell her it's an astronomy lecture from some school. She walks over to me, and picks up my iPod, and goes "well, I can't dock points for it, but I can award you some" and she does! LOL! +2 points! So now everyone is going to get astronomy lectures and bump them to their pods. We were watching a video I thought was terribly boring, so I jacked into some stuff about the nature of black holes, and what comes out the ass end of them. More interesting period.
So, now I've got two hours of Bleach anime to watch, I'm writing a book inspired by a conversation me and Ann had, and there is really no place I'd rather be than right here at my desk. I've never felt this calm about anything at all ever. I could croak the next day and say I'd lived it good for at least a week.
I just hope this good roll keeps on going. Getting fired really was the greatest thing to happen to me ever I believe. I should be paying them for getting rid of me. Seriously. Stephen was so right too. The job was killing me, and without it I feel like ten billion dollars. No stress. No worries. And nothing but future, and endless road to walk down.
I'm really, really, wanting San Francisco to be my city of choice now. I keep reading more about it, and jeez...I just feel I need to get there come hell or high water. It's like a calling and I can't NOT accept the charges.
Last night was good, and yesterday was all around bad ass excluding the homework I had to do. But that was painless in the end, and I made a mountain out of a mowhill. I helped my folks, saw my bud Sam, and got a lot of writing done. What more could be asked for?
Today was even better. I get up, goto class, listen to my iPod while in class - get complimented by the teacher for it when I tell her it's an astronomy lecture from some school. She walks over to me, and picks up my iPod, and goes "well, I can't dock points for it, but I can award you some" and she does! LOL! +2 points! So now everyone is going to get astronomy lectures and bump them to their pods. We were watching a video I thought was terribly boring, so I jacked into some stuff about the nature of black holes, and what comes out the ass end of them. More interesting period.
So, now I've got two hours of Bleach anime to watch, I'm writing a book inspired by a conversation me and Ann had, and there is really no place I'd rather be than right here at my desk. I've never felt this calm about anything at all ever. I could croak the next day and say I'd lived it good for at least a week.
I just hope this good roll keeps on going. Getting fired really was the greatest thing to happen to me ever I believe. I should be paying them for getting rid of me. Seriously. Stephen was so right too. The job was killing me, and without it I feel like ten billion dollars. No stress. No worries. And nothing but future, and endless road to walk down.
I'm really, really, wanting San Francisco to be my city of choice now. I keep reading more about it, and jeez...I just feel I need to get there come hell or high water. It's like a calling and I can't NOT accept the charges.
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Apr. 3rd, 2006 05:50 pm
Someone asks: "Why don't you sue?"
I got a phone call today from my old manager that got canned right before I did, and she asked me plainly: "Why didn't you sue?"
Well, the fact of the matter is that I don't care to! The company I used to work for is an altar of fucking sin that sits on top of a pile of misery in the wastelands of the lower pits of the Final Abyss which is below the third layer of Hell Proper.
Given that declaration, suing the shit out of them would prove fruitless. They are lawyers, and are going broke. They are fucking evil, and me suing them means me putting hands on blood money. I'm in no mood for that, and to boot there are still good people there that would likely suffer due to me doing that. I hate the company, that's for sure. My disdain is great. But, it is sated in knowing they are failing miserably at everything they are trying to accomplish...if that is anything at all.
They suck, and that's about the end of it. They screwed me, and a lot of people royally...but at the same time, what goes around comes around. I know for a fact that the people that work there and collude to destroy each other are only doomed to one thing: self destruction. My ex, her managerial buddies, the executives, and all the rest...their fates have been sealed, and the magic of their little illusionary world will die.
In other news, I still think Ann is hot (the chick from my sociology class) but today I found out she is taken. Alas, 'twas never gonna happen. I just hope she writes her book.
Ok, so I'm gonna go get some food and head to my creative non-fiction course.
Well, the fact of the matter is that I don't care to! The company I used to work for is an altar of fucking sin that sits on top of a pile of misery in the wastelands of the lower pits of the Final Abyss which is below the third layer of Hell Proper.
Given that declaration, suing the shit out of them would prove fruitless. They are lawyers, and are going broke. They are fucking evil, and me suing them means me putting hands on blood money. I'm in no mood for that, and to boot there are still good people there that would likely suffer due to me doing that. I hate the company, that's for sure. My disdain is great. But, it is sated in knowing they are failing miserably at everything they are trying to accomplish...if that is anything at all.
They suck, and that's about the end of it. They screwed me, and a lot of people royally...but at the same time, what goes around comes around. I know for a fact that the people that work there and collude to destroy each other are only doomed to one thing: self destruction. My ex, her managerial buddies, the executives, and all the rest...their fates have been sealed, and the magic of their little illusionary world will die.
In other news, I still think Ann is hot (the chick from my sociology class) but today I found out she is taken. Alas, 'twas never gonna happen. I just hope she writes her book.
Ok, so I'm gonna go get some food and head to my creative non-fiction course.
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Jan. 31st, 2006 11:06 pm
One more thing...
My statements yesterday about me, and web browsers...
I'll come to your house and teach you how to use the The King of Browsers with ease, and joy in my heart. Seriously, I'm a user-driven technologist if people can believe that. I day dream about being able to code my own interfaces, and how to make programs more user-friendly. In addition to that I like researching anything under the sun to the point of obsessiveness.
That brings me to another point today. I was looking at some problems within society, and decided that I could personally re-engineer the whole entire United States of America to be more people-oriented, and even more efficient. I'm not going to unveil my government model yet, b/c I'm not done creating a lot of charts, images, and other things for it.
I've got the basic ground-work done for it. Economy. Legal system. Military. The three arms of a nation anyway. It's crazy right? Thinking up a whole entire method of ruling a country, right? It's already been done, right? I've had the idea for about two years now, and had it written in stone to pen it out. I think I can do that at least on a theoretical level.
So I might launch a website, and I might start a party. Of course again, I might be crazy, but hey - aren't we all?
Oh and yeah, this form of government is very people friendly, eliminates poverty, taxes, health care issues, lets you keep personal property, promote business, and maintain all of your rights we currently enjoy in the U.S. so far. In addition, the ones we used to have before 9/11 would come back as well.
I'll come to your house and teach you how to use the The King of Browsers with ease, and joy in my heart. Seriously, I'm a user-driven technologist if people can believe that. I day dream about being able to code my own interfaces, and how to make programs more user-friendly. In addition to that I like researching anything under the sun to the point of obsessiveness.
That brings me to another point today. I was looking at some problems within society, and decided that I could personally re-engineer the whole entire United States of America to be more people-oriented, and even more efficient. I'm not going to unveil my government model yet, b/c I'm not done creating a lot of charts, images, and other things for it.
I've got the basic ground-work done for it. Economy. Legal system. Military. The three arms of a nation anyway. It's crazy right? Thinking up a whole entire method of ruling a country, right? It's already been done, right? I've had the idea for about two years now, and had it written in stone to pen it out. I think I can do that at least on a theoretical level.
So I might launch a website, and I might start a party. Of course again, I might be crazy, but hey - aren't we all?
Oh and yeah, this form of government is very people friendly, eliminates poverty, taxes, health care issues, lets you keep personal property, promote business, and maintain all of your rights we currently enjoy in the U.S. so far. In addition, the ones we used to have before 9/11 would come back as well.
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Jan. 21st, 2006 05:38 pm
Life-In Review
So, I just got done tagging ALL of my journal entries from 2003 February - 2006 January.
THAT'S THREE FRIGGIN' YEARS!
Seeing all the memories as time drifted was really heart wrenching at some points. The last half of 2005 I had to literally grind through, and try and not look at the screen for fear of some bad emotion coming back. Most of it was all private data, but if anyone saw it they'd probably instantly know the hallmarks of a broken person.
Man, seriously. I looked at some of the essays I wrote a while ago, and I've figured that I need to go down that road again. Lately, I have noticed all of my posts have to do with reflection. 95% of my posts have been about reflection, which is what is expected of an online journal. I just thought I'd had more "other stuff" than I did. Apparently, the other stuff really just stuck out in my mind. Overall, it was pretty amazing that I seemed to keep a chronicle of what happened over time. It's decently accurate, and most of all the important events are all covered. The summertimes were often occupied by some video game addiction, thus a void of information.
Another good thing happened today too. I got a phone call from my old bud Stephen. It was two years, and fourteen days (or so) since I said bye to him a while back...and man that was a bad move on my part. I looked at all the posts concerning him...all positive, except that one! Private ones included. I looked at the posts concerning Michelle, and most all of them were negative in some regard. I never had any kind of "omg im in love w/ you" post about her at all. With that kind of realization, I know without a doubt I made the right move in leaving her.
I mean, what man chronicles three years of his life and never even mentions that he's happy with the one he's with? Was I nuts?!?! Was a fucking idiot?!?! Seriously! Not one SINGLE, post was good! I was always complaining about something, and literally SCRAPING for an excuse to be happy about her, or counterbalance the bad feelings I had. Yeah, but hindsight is a bitch. I let the idea of love literally blind my ass beyond logic, and most of all probably sacrificed precious years, health, and lord knows what else in order to make her happy.
I can't blame anyone but myself, but I do know where I got the logic to stick it out from at least. My mom. Yeah, no matter what she did, or said - she stayed in an abusive relationship. I don't think any modern woman would do the same - but b/c she wanted a future for her kids she did. Unfortunately, I'm no mathmetician, or Nobel Prize winner. I'm just me still - so who knows how I would have turned out w/out my father there...probably worse, and different...but was it worth her abuse? I can't measure that at all. Some other observer of time will have to make that call. I have to keep this in mind though: staying in a one-sided relationship is not a facet of healthy living!
Regardless, I have a 100% shinsei way of thinking about things still. I'll not waste time on chasing skirts, like I thought...I'll just be me like I was six years ago. I'll go about my business, and I think I'll end up running into something, or someone I love again.
THAT'S THREE FRIGGIN' YEARS!
Seeing all the memories as time drifted was really heart wrenching at some points. The last half of 2005 I had to literally grind through, and try and not look at the screen for fear of some bad emotion coming back. Most of it was all private data, but if anyone saw it they'd probably instantly know the hallmarks of a broken person.
Man, seriously. I looked at some of the essays I wrote a while ago, and I've figured that I need to go down that road again. Lately, I have noticed all of my posts have to do with reflection. 95% of my posts have been about reflection, which is what is expected of an online journal. I just thought I'd had more "other stuff" than I did. Apparently, the other stuff really just stuck out in my mind. Overall, it was pretty amazing that I seemed to keep a chronicle of what happened over time. It's decently accurate, and most of all the important events are all covered. The summertimes were often occupied by some video game addiction, thus a void of information.
Another good thing happened today too. I got a phone call from my old bud Stephen. It was two years, and fourteen days (or so) since I said bye to him a while back...and man that was a bad move on my part. I looked at all the posts concerning him...all positive, except that one! Private ones included. I looked at the posts concerning Michelle, and most all of them were negative in some regard. I never had any kind of "omg im in love w/ you" post about her at all. With that kind of realization, I know without a doubt I made the right move in leaving her.
I mean, what man chronicles three years of his life and never even mentions that he's happy with the one he's with? Was I nuts?!?! Was a fucking idiot?!?! Seriously! Not one SINGLE, post was good! I was always complaining about something, and literally SCRAPING for an excuse to be happy about her, or counterbalance the bad feelings I had. Yeah, but hindsight is a bitch. I let the idea of love literally blind my ass beyond logic, and most of all probably sacrificed precious years, health, and lord knows what else in order to make her happy.
I can't blame anyone but myself, but I do know where I got the logic to stick it out from at least. My mom. Yeah, no matter what she did, or said - she stayed in an abusive relationship. I don't think any modern woman would do the same - but b/c she wanted a future for her kids she did. Unfortunately, I'm no mathmetician, or Nobel Prize winner. I'm just me still - so who knows how I would have turned out w/out my father there...probably worse, and different...but was it worth her abuse? I can't measure that at all. Some other observer of time will have to make that call. I have to keep this in mind though: staying in a one-sided relationship is not a facet of healthy living!
Regardless, I have a 100% shinsei way of thinking about things still. I'll not waste time on chasing skirts, like I thought...I'll just be me like I was six years ago. I'll go about my business, and I think I'll end up running into something, or someone I love again.
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Jan. 15th, 2006 10:04 am
100% confirmed, Bye Texas
Ok, after last night. I'm more than determined to leave here now. Not just a little, but a lot determined. More like like a Run for your Life kind of thing. Bad case of drunken dialing last night. Deleted Michelle from phone book, bad fingers. Bad drunken me.
But that's not what's causing me to go, it's that I realized I have literally nothing anchoring me here of interest to my future. Not one thing at all. I woke up from a dream realizing that. This morning as a matter of fact.
So all systems are go. In five months, this place is going to be obliterated. I'll find someone to sublease my apartment, and just pay the rent. Or I'll just pay all the rent up front, and leave. I won't be staying her another year for sure. Can't do it. Not healthy.
Off to work out now, and clean my crib.
But that's not what's causing me to go, it's that I realized I have literally nothing anchoring me here of interest to my future. Not one thing at all. I woke up from a dream realizing that. This morning as a matter of fact.
So all systems are go. In five months, this place is going to be obliterated. I'll find someone to sublease my apartment, and just pay the rent. Or I'll just pay all the rent up front, and leave. I won't be staying her another year for sure. Can't do it. Not healthy.
Off to work out now, and clean my crib.
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Jan. 14th, 2006 10:10 pm
Coming down
Ok, so I'm comin' down from a pretty good buzz at the moment.
What's good is that I cleaned my entire apartment while I was buzzed, and worked out too. While blown. Given that, I figure I got some pretty serious subconscious issues to deal with. I must feel the urge to be productive, thus me working so damn much. Fair enough. Lately, I've been wondering consciously - what's bugging me so much as of late.
I figure that Michelle and I really had something good, but didn't in the end. Am I still thinking about her? Yeah, sometimes. It's more like I keep analyzing parts I could have done better at. Cleaning perhaps. Cooking romantic dinners more. Hell, giving a shit about what we do as a couple would have been good. Ah, fuck it. It's done, so I got to move on.
That brings me to my bigger picture. I guess I need to leave this behind. I feel like I'm still stuck in a moment frozen in time. I can't escape it, and no matter what I say I do - I'll fall. I'll fall back into some sick cycle here. So, I need to do what God, and the rest of whatever deities are out there do best - wipe it all out.
Now, I'm not proposing going psycho and blowing shit up. I'm considering a change of reality - permanently. What's that? How does one change reality? We all know reality is subjective. What you think is real - is not real to anyone else - but you. Therefore, I need to shift mine in order to stay healthy. How? Well, a severance needs to occur with the current concious manifestation that is me, and a new persona must be injected. Again, how? Simply put - I move and I become a different person. Of course, people do change over a period of time. It happens every day, and slowly. Every now and again, a catalyst is applied to that consciousness and BAM. A new persona emerges as a result. It could be a traumatic, good, bad, happy, sexual, whatever type of experience. Some people refer to these as epiphanies, or what have you. Some prophets call it being enlightened, hearing the voice of a god, or whatever other form of loud internal movement they can think of.
In order for me to engage this kind of catalyst fully, I've made it clear I have to move. Now why is that? Why leave Texas? Why go so far to San Francisco where weird people dwell - according to Right Wing folks - and the ocean is so near? Does it take a movement so large to bring things into a continuum of harmony? I look at music here. Sound suffuses everything. It's a notion taken from RahXephon. Overall, a big movement and a tuning needs to take place. Movements that I can't initiate while being here.
My friends are good to me, and the same. All is well, nothing is inharmonious on that front. My career is in dire need of change. So is my love life. My family is fine on that front. So, I do this for me I guess, as no significant other is left.
As soon as I graduate I am going to put all force on departure. I love my past, but I need the future to come now, not later. If it is this catalyst that must be applied, then so be it. It will be painful, and it will not ...be easy. Saying goodbye to all I know as real, safe, and true is not a little thing. It will be done though, and maybe then, just then I'll leave this dead soul behind.
What's good is that I cleaned my entire apartment while I was buzzed, and worked out too. While blown. Given that, I figure I got some pretty serious subconscious issues to deal with. I must feel the urge to be productive, thus me working so damn much. Fair enough. Lately, I've been wondering consciously - what's bugging me so much as of late.
I figure that Michelle and I really had something good, but didn't in the end. Am I still thinking about her? Yeah, sometimes. It's more like I keep analyzing parts I could have done better at. Cleaning perhaps. Cooking romantic dinners more. Hell, giving a shit about what we do as a couple would have been good. Ah, fuck it. It's done, so I got to move on.
That brings me to my bigger picture. I guess I need to leave this behind. I feel like I'm still stuck in a moment frozen in time. I can't escape it, and no matter what I say I do - I'll fall. I'll fall back into some sick cycle here. So, I need to do what God, and the rest of whatever deities are out there do best - wipe it all out.
Now, I'm not proposing going psycho and blowing shit up. I'm considering a change of reality - permanently. What's that? How does one change reality? We all know reality is subjective. What you think is real - is not real to anyone else - but you. Therefore, I need to shift mine in order to stay healthy. How? Well, a severance needs to occur with the current concious manifestation that is me, and a new persona must be injected. Again, how? Simply put - I move and I become a different person. Of course, people do change over a period of time. It happens every day, and slowly. Every now and again, a catalyst is applied to that consciousness and BAM. A new persona emerges as a result. It could be a traumatic, good, bad, happy, sexual, whatever type of experience. Some people refer to these as epiphanies, or what have you. Some prophets call it being enlightened, hearing the voice of a god, or whatever other form of loud internal movement they can think of.
In order for me to engage this kind of catalyst fully, I've made it clear I have to move. Now why is that? Why leave Texas? Why go so far to San Francisco where weird people dwell - according to Right Wing folks - and the ocean is so near? Does it take a movement so large to bring things into a continuum of harmony? I look at music here. Sound suffuses everything. It's a notion taken from RahXephon. Overall, a big movement and a tuning needs to take place. Movements that I can't initiate while being here.
My friends are good to me, and the same. All is well, nothing is inharmonious on that front. My career is in dire need of change. So is my love life. My family is fine on that front. So, I do this for me I guess, as no significant other is left.
As soon as I graduate I am going to put all force on departure. I love my past, but I need the future to come now, not later. If it is this catalyst that must be applied, then so be it. It will be painful, and it will not ...be easy. Saying goodbye to all I know as real, safe, and true is not a little thing. It will be done though, and maybe then, just then I'll leave this dead soul behind.
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Jan. 7th, 2006 05:47 pm
Saturday Night School Girls
Ok, so tonight the Lizard Lounge opens at 9PM. It's naughty school girl night. That means that...well, there will be a lot of eye candy.
That's all really. However, every last one of my male friends is in a relationship. Therefore, going to this thing solo is my only option. That's REALLY bringing me down. Seriously. I've got friends all over the place, and the instant I'm single - well, they weren't. Go figure. So now I'm stuck here at my place, pondering if I should even go. Wandering into a fairly Gothic club w/out one or two companions is a rough thing to do to yourself if you haven't dated in 5 years.
Meh, I might go anyway, but offers aren't exactly jumping off the plate as far as takers go. I might try and convince Sam and Amanda that going is a good thing. Considering how much Amanda loves women...hell, she might be the best candidate to go with. I worry that 2nd hand smoke could get her down though. She is pregnant with Sam's kid. We'll see though...if anyone wants to go, then you know how to reach me...if not, hit me on AIM.
That's all really. However, every last one of my male friends is in a relationship. Therefore, going to this thing solo is my only option. That's REALLY bringing me down. Seriously. I've got friends all over the place, and the instant I'm single - well, they weren't. Go figure. So now I'm stuck here at my place, pondering if I should even go. Wandering into a fairly Gothic club w/out one or two companions is a rough thing to do to yourself if you haven't dated in 5 years.
Meh, I might go anyway, but offers aren't exactly jumping off the plate as far as takers go. I might try and convince Sam and Amanda that going is a good thing. Considering how much Amanda loves women...hell, she might be the best candidate to go with. I worry that 2nd hand smoke could get her down though. She is pregnant with Sam's kid. We'll see though...if anyone wants to go, then you know how to reach me...if not, hit me on AIM.
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Dec. 27th, 2005 11:24 pm
bokken pain
Bokken excercises even when done mere jest, and for fitness alone hurt like hell. Be forewarned.
In other news, I begin crosstraining tomorrow. I'll see if my old record can be matched again. starts at 10PM sharp. =p
In other news, I begin crosstraining tomorrow. I'll see if my old record can be matched again. starts at 10PM sharp. =p
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Dec. 25th, 2005 07:02 pm
Merry Christmas
Mkay, so today is Christmas. So, Merry Christmas and happy holidays to all ppls.
And here's one Santa(ette) to rule them all!(NSFW)
Moving on, I think today has been mainly a day of recovery and contemplation for me. I'm sick again (big surprise!) and in general in the mood to do a lot of reading. So far I've wrapt in the plot of Blood in, Blood out a Vampire the Masquerade novel. So far so good, and perhaps I will write a review on it sometime soon on one website or another.
Tomorrow I'm gonna go fetch a DVD Burner b/c electronics stores are having blow out sales I mean REAL big sales. Seriously. At Comp USA they are offering a 300 Gig hard drive for $80.00. That's insanity! It's an IDE drive, not SATA, but hey it's still a good deal.
So, enjoy your gifts, and remember: egg nogg goes best w/ rum. Not tequila. I learned that once...
And here's one Santa(ette) to rule them all!(NSFW)
Moving on, I think today has been mainly a day of recovery and contemplation for me. I'm sick again (big surprise!) and in general in the mood to do a lot of reading. So far I've wrapt in the plot of Blood in, Blood out a Vampire the Masquerade novel. So far so good, and perhaps I will write a review on it sometime soon on one website or another.
Tomorrow I'm gonna go fetch a DVD Burner b/c electronics stores are having blow out sales I mean REAL big sales. Seriously. At Comp USA they are offering a 300 Gig hard drive for $80.00. That's insanity! It's an IDE drive, not SATA, but hey it's still a good deal.
So, enjoy your gifts, and remember: egg nogg goes best w/ rum. Not tequila. I learned that once...
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Dec. 22nd, 2005 11:34 pm
Xmas Early, iPod nano!
Ok, so I got to celebrate xmas early with my family, and it was great. I got a bunch of great CG Jung books from my bro's family, and other great loot. The tea set was seriously the bomb. It's Adagio Teas ingenuTea system. It's pretty damn phat.
So the last half of my trip was basically spent just chilling really. I got to catch up on some reading, visit the big blue lady (the Atlantic Ocean), and fiddle with my new iPod. My momz got me it. I have to say, it's pretty damn sweet. I am using Linux, so I had to do some hacking to get it to work with Linux, but in the end it's cool. I have to restore it though b/c I accidently unplugged it when I wasn't supposed to. Therefore, the dang thing says there are "no songs" on the unit, but in reality 1.5 GB of space is taken up! Not my fault really. I followed the guide I saw on the web. It said unmount the iPod (I did, it's a linux command) and disconnect it - done! Well, the damn thing remained mounted for some fucking reason. I have no clue why! So, when I hit the songs category on the menu - it was empty as shit. I hit the about setting under the settings menu - and what do you know! It said it was at 1.5 GB of capacity! That means it's corrupted as balls.
I have to get to a Windows Machine at work, install iTunes (ugh), and then hit the restore button to wipe the drive clean. When it's wiped clean I can start putting more music on there. It's funny though b/c I had a whole great lineup of music put on it, and if I hadn't disconnected it - it would have been great. So, in order to fully use this thing I have to shut down my computer entirely before disconnecting my iPod. That's pretty lame I say, but then again - iPod's are not supposed to work with Linux at all. Another reason for me to save my pennies for a new PowerBook whenever they come out.
Then again, I'm waiting for the fucking world to realize that Linux is worthy of supporting. It's not just some shit-pie-in-the-sky OS. It's got GAME baby. It'll be a while before people realize. Le sigh. I guess I'll just have to wait it out. I hope China fucking owns us and brings Linux around to everyone daddy-pants style. Can't wait for the world's largest economy to open up...at least it supports free software.
So the last half of my trip was basically spent just chilling really. I got to catch up on some reading, visit the big blue lady (the Atlantic Ocean), and fiddle with my new iPod. My momz got me it. I have to say, it's pretty damn sweet. I am using Linux, so I had to do some hacking to get it to work with Linux, but in the end it's cool. I have to restore it though b/c I accidently unplugged it when I wasn't supposed to. Therefore, the dang thing says there are "no songs" on the unit, but in reality 1.5 GB of space is taken up! Not my fault really. I followed the guide I saw on the web. It said unmount the iPod (I did, it's a linux command) and disconnect it - done! Well, the damn thing remained mounted for some fucking reason. I have no clue why! So, when I hit the songs category on the menu - it was empty as shit. I hit the about setting under the settings menu - and what do you know! It said it was at 1.5 GB of capacity! That means it's corrupted as balls.
I have to get to a Windows Machine at work, install iTunes (ugh), and then hit the restore button to wipe the drive clean. When it's wiped clean I can start putting more music on there. It's funny though b/c I had a whole great lineup of music put on it, and if I hadn't disconnected it - it would have been great. So, in order to fully use this thing I have to shut down my computer entirely before disconnecting my iPod. That's pretty lame I say, but then again - iPod's are not supposed to work with Linux at all. Another reason for me to save my pennies for a new PowerBook whenever they come out.
Then again, I'm waiting for the fucking world to realize that Linux is worthy of supporting. It's not just some shit-pie-in-the-sky OS. It's got GAME baby. It'll be a while before people realize. Le sigh. I guess I'll just have to wait it out. I hope China fucking owns us and brings Linux around to everyone daddy-pants style. Can't wait for the world's largest economy to open up...at least it supports free software.
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Dec. 19th, 2005 03:06 pm
Vacationing Update!
Ok, I'm still on vacation, and things are good.
I stayed up for 26 hours packing, and getting ready to go. When we landed we ate some extra special foods from a place called Pompano Joe's. The food was suave, and very yum. After that, we came back home and started playing quarters. If you are unfamiliar with quarters, just know that you try and put a quarter in a glass via means of bouncing it off a hard surface. If it lands in the glass, you target someone for a "drink" etc. Much drunknness ensued.
Afterward, we went to a club. I caught a nap beforehand, and while we were out, we lived it up. My brother was initially trying to play jockey/quarter horse with a chick, but ended up fighting with her. In trying to figure out -why- she was fighting with Chris - I pissed off Chris! Chris was embroiled in some he said, she said shit, and I told her to basically make it up to him. In the end they did. Chris was really railing her, but with some degree of justice on his part. She was being a retard. Then again, so was Chris. So, I thought both of them should just chill out and have a good time. I got the angry stares, but in the end everything worked out, and they understood each other. They just needed some time to sort things out. I met a buttload of Chris's firefighting buddies, including his friend Star. Star is a jock that's in the Air Force, and is watching Chris's back. He's a good guy really, and overall really was making sure Chris was on the straight and narrow - despite the boozing.
That night we went to the Waffle House with Buyar (Chris's best bud that flew in with us), Chris, my bro John, his wife Gin, and myself. I must have lost my credit card at the Waffle House b/c it was not on me when I reached for it today. I called Bank of America and found out that someone was trying to run $700.00 worth of purchases on my card, and that pretty much did it for me. I knew for a fact someone had it, and Bank of America did too. They were pretty fly about it though! They put a block on my card, and they also said I could dispute the sole $7.93 charge that got through on the account. I'll get a new card in 5 days, which is cool. I figure it had to have been one of four select individuals that were at the Waffle House that took the card. There were two guys who knew the waitress, and smoking with her, and there was also one other man at the end of the table. The last suspect was the cook. I do not think it would have been him though, and ruled him out due to the location of where I would have dropped the card. I dropped it either while I was eating, or while I was walking out of the Waffle House. Therefore, I hope the remaining four or so get caught.
More updates later, b/c I'm fiercely hungry. Things are swell so far, and there are plenty of hot women here...not that I want anything more than a hug or kiss at this point.
I stayed up for 26 hours packing, and getting ready to go. When we landed we ate some extra special foods from a place called Pompano Joe's. The food was suave, and very yum. After that, we came back home and started playing quarters. If you are unfamiliar with quarters, just know that you try and put a quarter in a glass via means of bouncing it off a hard surface. If it lands in the glass, you target someone for a "drink" etc. Much drunknness ensued.
Afterward, we went to a club. I caught a nap beforehand, and while we were out, we lived it up. My brother was initially trying to play jockey/quarter horse with a chick, but ended up fighting with her. In trying to figure out -why- she was fighting with Chris - I pissed off Chris! Chris was embroiled in some he said, she said shit, and I told her to basically make it up to him. In the end they did. Chris was really railing her, but with some degree of justice on his part. She was being a retard. Then again, so was Chris. So, I thought both of them should just chill out and have a good time. I got the angry stares, but in the end everything worked out, and they understood each other. They just needed some time to sort things out. I met a buttload of Chris's firefighting buddies, including his friend Star. Star is a jock that's in the Air Force, and is watching Chris's back. He's a good guy really, and overall really was making sure Chris was on the straight and narrow - despite the boozing.
That night we went to the Waffle House with Buyar (Chris's best bud that flew in with us), Chris, my bro John, his wife Gin, and myself. I must have lost my credit card at the Waffle House b/c it was not on me when I reached for it today. I called Bank of America and found out that someone was trying to run $700.00 worth of purchases on my card, and that pretty much did it for me. I knew for a fact someone had it, and Bank of America did too. They were pretty fly about it though! They put a block on my card, and they also said I could dispute the sole $7.93 charge that got through on the account. I'll get a new card in 5 days, which is cool. I figure it had to have been one of four select individuals that were at the Waffle House that took the card. There were two guys who knew the waitress, and smoking with her, and there was also one other man at the end of the table. The last suspect was the cook. I do not think it would have been him though, and ruled him out due to the location of where I would have dropped the card. I dropped it either while I was eating, or while I was walking out of the Waffle House. Therefore, I hope the remaining four or so get caught.
More updates later, b/c I'm fiercely hungry. Things are swell so far, and there are plenty of hot women here...not that I want anything more than a hug or kiss at this point.
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Dec. 15th, 2005 10:43 pm
Vacation, and latest desktop/
Found this desktop the other day, and man alive, it was hot.
So I found a way to integrate her into my daily work space. Don't click if at work, and yes, it's tasteful. Very good art, and perhaps one of the best looking women I've laid eyes on. 100% natural too. Genetics is a hell of a thing.
In other news, I'm going to be chilling in Florida soon. My brother is down there, and I'm going to visit him before he ships out to Korea. My whole family will be there, which is great. I feel bad though because it's right after my great grandmother's death...but then again, as Jung says - you find ways to cope, and do so at your own behest.
I figure she would have wanted us to be together as much as possible, and in doing so, I guess we honor her.
So I found a way to integrate her into my daily work space. Don't click if at work, and yes, it's tasteful. Very good art, and perhaps one of the best looking women I've laid eyes on. 100% natural too. Genetics is a hell of a thing.
In other news, I'm going to be chilling in Florida soon. My brother is down there, and I'm going to visit him before he ships out to Korea. My whole family will be there, which is great. I feel bad though because it's right after my great grandmother's death...but then again, as Jung says - you find ways to cope, and do so at your own behest.
I figure she would have wanted us to be together as much as possible, and in doing so, I guess we honor her.
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Dec. 14th, 2005 05:42 pm
Great Granny's Death, and post finals
Ok, as you can see from my friend JC's Journal we had a hell of time with finals.
Basically, I was really in a slump Saturday, and Sunday. I was stressed, depressed, and all around going nuts. Sunday, I wrote some fiction, felt better, and pulled some work out of my ass. I got the call from JC, and I made 0 attempt to resist the urge to go see him and study.
Without his help, I'm sure I would not have finished all the work I was supposed to do. We had our ups, and downs, but overall it was imperative that we did it. We hardly studied with regards to final it felt like, but we did do well with our homework, and assignments. That's what we hit the hardest. I think Cheski-sensei would be more than willing to help us w/ grades. At least, I got this impression from the conversation at the end of class.
Overall, I am glad the class is over with. I downed 300MG of caffeine on Sunday night. I basically had a self-induced heart arythmia because of it, and my kidneys felt like they were going to fall out. I did my work though, and yeah, I did put some serious wear on myself. After the caffine wore off at 6AM I got two hours of sleep, and went to JC's pad again. After he woke from a cozy night with his lady, we got back to it. We busted our asses some more, and worked hard on getting stuff done. We went to the library, and there we met his friend Yoshi who literally tooled our homework up some more. He's a native Japanese speaker, and very intelligent. He's on the fast-lane to riches, I'm sure of it.
So, JC and I are doing well, and very happy this is all over with - but things did take downturn for me today. My great-grandmother passed away. Well, she was 98.5 years old, and I loved her dearly. I'm going to miss her, and cry a million times - as I did today - and will continue to feel like a bastard. I should have visited her more! I was jackass, and consumed myself with life, and well...at least I got to see her one more time before she died. It's better than not seeing her I suppose. I just feel bad for my dad who is literally tanking all of this emotional trauma and working through today. It's amazing really, it is. I don't know how a man can lose his grandmother, and then keep on working. My boss sent me home because she looked at me and told me to "get the hell outta here, b/c you're no good with a broken heart" and she was right. I wasn't working I was just pushing papers trying not cry.
Again, my dad is really going to go nuts in the next few days here. I fear the worst, really, I do. As far as flight accommodations go - I have no clue what the heck is going on at all. I know I am going to try and goto work tomorrow, but I can't say that it will work out in the end. Overall, I'd have to say 2005 was almost a total washout for me emotionally. I haven't had so many emotionally cathartic moments in my entire life. If it's one thing I have learned to value it's friends and family. Without any of them I'd most surely would have put a bullet to my brain a long while go. But, they are here, and for that I've got plenty to give thanks for.
Basically, I was really in a slump Saturday, and Sunday. I was stressed, depressed, and all around going nuts. Sunday, I wrote some fiction, felt better, and pulled some work out of my ass. I got the call from JC, and I made 0 attempt to resist the urge to go see him and study.
Without his help, I'm sure I would not have finished all the work I was supposed to do. We had our ups, and downs, but overall it was imperative that we did it. We hardly studied with regards to final it felt like, but we did do well with our homework, and assignments. That's what we hit the hardest. I think Cheski-sensei would be more than willing to help us w/ grades. At least, I got this impression from the conversation at the end of class.
Overall, I am glad the class is over with. I downed 300MG of caffeine on Sunday night. I basically had a self-induced heart arythmia because of it, and my kidneys felt like they were going to fall out. I did my work though, and yeah, I did put some serious wear on myself. After the caffine wore off at 6AM I got two hours of sleep, and went to JC's pad again. After he woke from a cozy night with his lady, we got back to it. We busted our asses some more, and worked hard on getting stuff done. We went to the library, and there we met his friend Yoshi who literally tooled our homework up some more. He's a native Japanese speaker, and very intelligent. He's on the fast-lane to riches, I'm sure of it.
So, JC and I are doing well, and very happy this is all over with - but things did take downturn for me today. My great-grandmother passed away. Well, she was 98.5 years old, and I loved her dearly. I'm going to miss her, and cry a million times - as I did today - and will continue to feel like a bastard. I should have visited her more! I was jackass, and consumed myself with life, and well...at least I got to see her one more time before she died. It's better than not seeing her I suppose. I just feel bad for my dad who is literally tanking all of this emotional trauma and working through today. It's amazing really, it is. I don't know how a man can lose his grandmother, and then keep on working. My boss sent me home because she looked at me and told me to "get the hell outta here, b/c you're no good with a broken heart" and she was right. I wasn't working I was just pushing papers trying not cry.
Again, my dad is really going to go nuts in the next few days here. I fear the worst, really, I do. As far as flight accommodations go - I have no clue what the heck is going on at all. I know I am going to try and goto work tomorrow, but I can't say that it will work out in the end. Overall, I'd have to say 2005 was almost a total washout for me emotionally. I haven't had so many emotionally cathartic moments in my entire life. If it's one thing I have learned to value it's friends and family. Without any of them I'd most surely would have put a bullet to my brain a long while go. But, they are here, and for that I've got plenty to give thanks for.
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Dec. 12th, 2005 08:19 am
Two options: Death, or Glory
Two hours of sleep. Boddy is shaking right now, and could not sleep. 300MG of caffine in 4 hours, and my heart went nuts. Literally. So much so that I started hallucinating again.
Finally fell asleep at 6:00AM and kept waking to remind myself to breathe.
Two options now: finish Japanese, or die trying. Literally. Might collapse on way home, or somethign, but its better than alternative. Two tests, one presentation, and over 3 chapters of homework. Almost there, can taste fleeting joy.
So, so, tired. If God is listening, I'd hope he either makes me better, or kills me.
Finally fell asleep at 6:00AM and kept waking to remind myself to breathe.
Two options now: finish Japanese, or die trying. Literally. Might collapse on way home, or somethign, but its better than alternative. Two tests, one presentation, and over 3 chapters of homework. Almost there, can taste fleeting joy.
So, so, tired. If God is listening, I'd hope he either makes me better, or kills me.
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Dec. 11th, 2005 09:36 am
Comedian Richard Pryor dies at 65
Man alive, 2005 is really lining up to be a deadly year for 1980's stars.
Read the story now if you want.
He went peacfully, with a smile on his face, and in the company of his wife. A good way to go.
Read the story now if you want.
He went peacfully, with a smile on his face, and in the company of his wife. A good way to go.
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Dec. 7th, 2005 02:03 pm
YukiGaHuda
It snowed, that's my subject line.
I think someone upstairs in Heaven, or wherever the controls for the Universe are must like me. Seriously. I woke up at 4AM this morning, literally about to decide between slitting my wrists, and facing music - and 1PM rolls around. I'm in class, discussing Shakespeare (the one class I liked a lot!) and BAM! classes were cancelled.
I would hate to say I didn't vindicated in some way, but I did. I felt like for once, someone said "Dan, you've suffered much, and this time, you get a break." And so, it was. Maybe, just maybe I can pull all my studying off now. I've got some time on my hands, and I know exactly what to do with it.
I'm off to write a paper, do some more homework, and keep at it. And yeah, thank God for snow (yuki in Japanese).
I think someone upstairs in Heaven, or wherever the controls for the Universe are must like me. Seriously. I woke up at 4AM this morning, literally about to decide between slitting my wrists, and facing music - and 1PM rolls around. I'm in class, discussing Shakespeare (the one class I liked a lot!) and BAM! classes were cancelled.
I would hate to say I didn't vindicated in some way, but I did. I felt like for once, someone said "Dan, you've suffered much, and this time, you get a break." And so, it was. Maybe, just maybe I can pull all my studying off now. I've got some time on my hands, and I know exactly what to do with it.
I'm off to write a paper, do some more homework, and keep at it. And yeah, thank God for snow (yuki in Japanese).
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Dec. 4th, 2005 08:43 pm
Sleeping again
Going to sleep agian now, and wondering if indeed I'll have a bad night. I have to wake up at 4AM so I can cram for my Japanese ch. 3 exam. Which will be my undoing if I don't get a B.
So, lots of praying, and stuff. Yeah. At least the middle part of the day was not insane. The morning was crazy, and so was the afternoon. Frenetic working, running, and doing last minute job stuff. It feels like my job is really out of control. It most likely is.
So, lots of praying, and stuff. Yeah. At least the middle part of the day was not insane. The morning was crazy, and so was the afternoon. Frenetic working, running, and doing last minute job stuff. It feels like my job is really out of control. It most likely is.
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First off look here every day. This is a chart of where the bird flu has hit.
Bird flu has arrived in the U.S. and is killing shit. Have it be in small flocks, or big ones, it's pretty much done.
Second, the virus already has mutated into the human-to-human variety in Indonesia, and other Asian countries. Check this out, here.
Now, the U.S. Government has no fucking clue what to do from here, and the news agencies have obviously been told to avoid covering this. Indonesia has a shitload of infected people, and the number is rapidly growing. Jakarta is a fucking plague city at this point.
Again this is as of December 2nd 2005. Why isn't NBC News reporting this shit? Why isn't the BBC covering this? Why the fuck ain't one god damn tabloid running this story?!?!?! Why is some shit little news site in Oregon getting this data, and running it faster than any agency!?!?! I've checked sources, and they all point to the same thing. Indonesia is a hot bed of H5N1. There is no reason for the public not to know. Other than them dropping the story flatly.
So, anyway, buy some Tamiflu if you can. It is apparent the U.S. and possibly other World Powers "Don't want to panic us" until it is too late.
Bird flu has arrived in the U.S. and is killing shit. Have it be in small flocks, or big ones, it's pretty much done.
Second, the virus already has mutated into the human-to-human variety in Indonesia, and other Asian countries. Check this out, here.
Now, the U.S. Government has no fucking clue what to do from here, and the news agencies have obviously been told to avoid covering this. Indonesia has a shitload of infected people, and the number is rapidly growing. Jakarta is a fucking plague city at this point.
Again this is as of December 2nd 2005. Why isn't NBC News reporting this shit? Why isn't the BBC covering this? Why the fuck ain't one god damn tabloid running this story?!?!?! Why is some shit little news site in Oregon getting this data, and running it faster than any agency!?!?! I've checked sources, and they all point to the same thing. Indonesia is a hot bed of H5N1. There is no reason for the public not to know. Other than them dropping the story flatly.
So, anyway, buy some Tamiflu if you can. It is apparent the U.S. and possibly other World Powers "Don't want to panic us" until it is too late.
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