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Ok, last night sucked ass.
I think that if it had been any worse I might have puked. I don't know why on Earth I even thought it might work out at Hilary's pad. Kitsi still was a bit feral after the whole thing, and I personally thought she might as well be a ICBM.
I'm back at school now, and finals are around the corner. I've got to study my ass off the next few days, but alas, I can only think about reading and writing. I don't know why this is exactly. I find that studying seems to stifle my goals, and gets in the way of me being who I am. I will study, and I will make good grades - it just seems that it's a waste of time somehow. I find that I cannot possibly sit here and do all what they need me to do, and be 100% happy. I wish the world didn't have these insane standards of education, and status. Without a degree you are nothing they say, when it isn't true. When you don't get a high paying job you lose your life, and that isn't true. So, what is true?
I find that making your own truth really is better than sitting around and trying to rationalize someone else's truth. You find exceptions to everyone's thoughts and musings. Personally, I find that philosophy is really just a way of people being able to express themselves through methodology. You do what you do b/c it makes you happy, and nothing else. In the light of people going "I'm adhering to these principles" - well, those principles are what you think will make you happy. Nothing else will, otherwise you would not be following them. If you ARE doing something that doesn't suit you, then do not DO IT.
Vagueness sometimes help people along in finding their potential, not some precise definition. Now, that isn't to say that vagueness should BE your philosophy, (it could be!) but I don't think that everyone would mesh well without some sort of cohesive thought on the way you act. Anyways, I guess I should get back to studying now. I better come up with some thoughts of my own on poetry, lest I get a failing grade due to stupid response essays. Bleh.
I think that if it had been any worse I might have puked. I don't know why on Earth I even thought it might work out at Hilary's pad. Kitsi still was a bit feral after the whole thing, and I personally thought she might as well be a ICBM.
I'm back at school now, and finals are around the corner. I've got to study my ass off the next few days, but alas, I can only think about reading and writing. I don't know why this is exactly. I find that studying seems to stifle my goals, and gets in the way of me being who I am. I will study, and I will make good grades - it just seems that it's a waste of time somehow. I find that I cannot possibly sit here and do all what they need me to do, and be 100% happy. I wish the world didn't have these insane standards of education, and status. Without a degree you are nothing they say, when it isn't true. When you don't get a high paying job you lose your life, and that isn't true. So, what is true?
I find that making your own truth really is better than sitting around and trying to rationalize someone else's truth. You find exceptions to everyone's thoughts and musings. Personally, I find that philosophy is really just a way of people being able to express themselves through methodology. You do what you do b/c it makes you happy, and nothing else. In the light of people going "I'm adhering to these principles" - well, those principles are what you think will make you happy. Nothing else will, otherwise you would not be following them. If you ARE doing something that doesn't suit you, then do not DO IT.
Vagueness sometimes help people along in finding their potential, not some precise definition. Now, that isn't to say that vagueness should BE your philosophy, (it could be!) but I don't think that everyone would mesh well without some sort of cohesive thought on the way you act. Anyways, I guess I should get back to studying now. I better come up with some thoughts of my own on poetry, lest I get a failing grade due to stupid response essays. Bleh.
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